30th of March 2007...
New news, i'm going to quit my job the 11 th of june. It's gonna be a huge relief for me cause this job is really sucking out all my life joy that i have. The minute i step into this building, it's like a big black cloud is over my head all the time. =/
Gonna work as a care of the elderly, i think that i've posted about this before, not entirely sure...
A friend of mine is going away today to a 4-6 month trip in Cypern to attend as a bartender, gosh, i wish i was on one of those adventures. Maybe not for that long period cause in my experience, the destination that you are going to has to have things to do otherwise it will get really boring even though you're abroad. And the phrase "No place like home" seems so good at the time....
Went to a birthday party this weekend. Nice food and all and it was quite fun also, long time ago a party wasn't all about being really wasted, just mingle was enough.
The week ahead now is all about working, maybe on friday i'm going to see Spiderman 3 on the cinema, downloaded spiderman 2 last night and saw about half the movie before i fell asleep, it's was good but after a 8,5 h of working with mildly hang-over - my brain couldn't manage to stay awake. Woke up this morning, almost to late to work.......again......haha....
Gaah, have to start working out again, was such a long time i went out for a jogging, the cookie-belly has grown a bit now=P
just 50 minutes left of work now..yeeey...=9
A nother day in this building...
I'm sick and tired of my job. For you who doesn't know what I do, here comes a short describition:
I have my own little desk with a computer. My job is to support customer about their telephones, mainly company customer. There're problems such as incorrect invoice to incorrect names set on the invoice. They yell, they sometimes curse (which isn't that common) and they nag...
I've done this type of job for almost 1,5 year, i think now is enough.
I got an interview on next thursday for a job as a substitute for nurses to taking care of old people. There may be some washing some poop after the oldies but what the heck, i think it will be so much better! A change of enviroment.
Hmm...Got myself an external harddrive today=) so i can store files again, hopefully this one will last longer than the last one (which got ruined in England, I won't say any name, but there could be a person responsable for that=P).
Checked out the tickets for our asia trip and the price to Beijing/Peking has gone up 14 dollars, ahhhhhhh, i think that we will buy the tickets tonight or tomorrow cause i will probably go up more. 657 dollars for a fligh ticket from Stockholm to Peking is really cheap, even if it's one way. The flight time will be 9 am and we will arrive 3 am in China so it's a long way cause we are flying to Ukraine for a stopover and stay there a couple of hours and the heading to China. I'm already excited and anxious for that trip, hopefully it will be the highlight of my life...
The guitar playing is going really well, I've been practising almost every night and i can feel the development of my touch of music:P......NOT!:P But it's going forward:P
Almost finished work. Just a half an hour left, not that long:P
There hasn't been a lot blogging these days but there aren't so much to tell about. Life kind of make a stand right now, not much happening except this f**king job that i'm currently at! But everyone who's blogging now that it's hard to keep the damn thing busy all the time. The first days goes well with blogging, you got the energy and it is really fun to write down everything that happens, especially when you're at a new place. But then, its slowly becomes as a burden to have a blog, if there are some visitor to your blog you have to maintain a daily update, otherwise they will never check it out again. And when you're checking the statistics that your'e visitor rate has decreased sharply, that's when you hit rock bottom! The blog becomes invisible and may not heal itself again. This is sadly but true, i think that most people who has a blog can relate to this.
It's just almost 1,5 month left until Vietnam, that's really close. And imagine, i almost didn't got a ticket cause my dad was really furious after my shocking news about leaving England earlier that planned. My Vietnam ticket that he had promised to buy if i stayed in England was gone, but thanks to my persuasive older sister, she managed to convince him to bring me along cause it wouldn't a real familytrip without the black sheep (which I have been often called, not due to my name but because i was a little bit clumsy when i was younger=P)
Tonight I'm just gonna hang out with friends, there is a little small fun fair in town tonight, i think that we will check it out, but there isn't that much of checking out. But if you're living in a small town with nothing happens you have to try to make the most of it=P
I have the weekend off now...It means sleeeeep.=)
I will try to stay tune. It's just 12 minutes left of work. Gonna hit the web the last minutes!:P
Peace out!=P
Sun equals fun...
Thursday and friday was work days, but yesterday was friday the 13, spooky day...Me and my friends rented a movie called "The Nun" which is a really crappy movie but it was a horror movie. Came home at night and slept in an big empty house, my folks are at a wedding so the are out for the weekend=) Even though the movie didn't scared me at the time but when i came home and it was all dark, i have to admit that it was a little bit scary, so i turned on a tv-show so i could take my mind of that, haha, am I a wimp?=P
Woke up 11 today, was really nice to wake up that late (since my work usually starts at 6:45 am). Played some football with friends, and the sun was out again, I don't know how or why but the sun always make me happy=)
Tonight is a hang-out night again at my house, we'll see what's gonna happen, probably nothing:P
It was a really long time ago i got that partyfeeling, but now it would seem quite nice to have a barbeque party or a beachparty? hmm.:P
I wanna travel again=( not to England though (that country is weird:P) but I just wanna go around and look at new stuff again, the excitment of being abroad is priceless, the best feeling is when you're in a big city and you can smell the bad air around it, all the cars and that stuff that keeps the city busy, thats when i know i'm abroad, the bad air, haha=P
Applied to 5 different universities today, all of them is about media and film production. That's what i wanna do in the future, but all the schools start in August/September but i won't go even though i will be accepted. I'm just applying to see if i will be accepted so that i would see my possibilities for next autumn, cause next spring will be the back-packing trip in Asia so i can't study yet:P
Hmm, i played the lottery today, i hope i will win, the highest win is 3 million dollar, hope it will be me, hehe:P
Enough blogging for today, to tired now, see ya!
Hello again...
The reason why I'm writing in English is so that my dear friend(s) in England can see what's happening in my life, or maybe not happening cause it has been quite quiet for a while now. There are some party here and there and you come across some new faces which is good. Otherwise, this town is more or less still asleep. But I shouldn't complain so much cause i chose to be back in this town from a 3-month visit in England. About England, there are times that make my thoughts wonderer back to those days. The days where you live in a hole completely different culture and you come across people from different part of the world. It's strange how connected everybody seem to be to each other. Imagine yourself, a 19 years-old person moving to study in another country knowing nobody and doesn't have so much knowledge of the country except the fact that they have a great national football team but hasn't proved themselve for a long time now, anyway there are things that are frighting in the world we human being are living in. The are wars, poverty and boogeyman everywhere but it doesn't seem like nobody cares. I wish that i was one of those people who did care about other humans around the world and did something to make a difference, maybe saving the world by being more kind to the enviroment. But I'm not one of those person nor are you (who is reading this) i guess? Back to the root about England. With just one word to describe it - unpredictable...As you think that people or things will go in one direction it suddenly takes a turn and then the world seems upside down. I'm not talking about one specific thing cause there where so many of those. One of the coolest/weirdest experince in my life was the night in Portsmouth where me and two friends pull out a dine&dash and also got our asses tossed in jail. That was really weird waking up with a hang-over in a prison cell without know whatsover what the fuck happened. But it turn out to be a fun experince even though I wouldn't wanna be in that situation ever again.
What else I experienced in England was the feeling of loosing people. I knew at the start that i was just gonna stick around for 7 month, but i never thought about meeting people where this closeness of friendship can suddenly be lost. During the Christmas holiday many people left England to go home to their family and never come back. To have this intense period where you are stuck with 19 people seems like it could be some sort of Big brother. But luckily we had some other options. Enough said about England.-
What have i learned about life? Hmm, so far, I've learn that what you make is what you get. Nothing comes easy in life and to have a path a stick by it is probably one of the most difficult things in life. There are shortcuts everywhere and leapholes but getting to your goal or dream is hard.
I'm dreaming of becoming some sort of a film director or editor and I'm going to work hard to get there. But I'm not ready to do that yet. There are things to do in the world before getting on that path for your dreams. For me, there are two things to go, firstly, the family trip to Vietnam this summer which I'm really looking forward to and secondly me and my two friends backpacking trip in Asia in the beginning of next year. We are looking for 3 months of backpacking, seeing a world that are so far from the world we live in Sweden. I think that that trip will be one of my most rememberble things that i will do in my life. I've done about 4 roadtrips in Sweden and the feeling when you are on the roads with friends is an indescribable feeling. But if i will put it all in one word it would be - freedom...
Walking down a road in a different town not knowing what's gonna happen or what's happening back home is the best feeling. The are no worries and bonderies where the road will take us, we live for 6-7 days together, sticking by each other and are just enjoying the best of our youth. Nobody wants to grow old and looking back through their lives have all this regrets that thay wish they had done differently. Of course a have a lot of regrets even though I'm just becoming 20 this year (and I'm surely you also have a lot of regrets whoever you may be), but all I can do now is looking forward to great things (hopefully) that will happen to me.
As I was saying, i'm at work right now so there aren't so much to do so that's why todays blogging is extra long. But i feel that I owe it to my blog to write this long cause the last blogpost was in november, which seems now like a lifetime away.
Other topic that goes in my mind are the way everything will be in these two years that will come. There are going to be a lot of movements going around. People starting their University studies, others have job in different places. I wonderer if it ever gonna be like it just to be? Friends gathering around for the weekend just to hang out. I'm sure that everyone will meet new friends and have their own life. But where does life starts, where will you meet your truly friends? These friends that you will spend the most of your time together? Well, in my opinion (wow, sounded a little bit to formal there:P) I have to say that it happens when you take these first step out from the hall, scream "God damn we are good, cause we have graduated", it's high school gradution of course. That's when it's all about youself afterwards and who you will meet. There are no obligation anymore, no one to blame or saying this is shit, cause now you have to deal with your own shit and to tell the truth - it is like a shit. The hardest part is not knowing what to do tomorrow or at the weekend. The hardest part is where will you be in the next year, who will you be with? There are no one to lean your back on anymore, not daddy, mommy nor any big brother/sister. It's scary but it's also so god damn cool. The entire world is out there, have a plan and don't hesitate but be realistic.
It feels like I have A LOT of experince, like I'm this 70-years-old person that gives advice to the youth - but I'm not. I'm just typing whatever goes in my mind, my own thoughts, my own opinions. I can't say wether this will have an effect on you or not - cause I don't really give a rat ass. =P
I'm not searching for inspire people cause everyone does whatever they want with their life, cause isn't that the beauty with the human being, not seeing every movie with the same story, having every band playing the same genre, but knowing that there are other genres, other movies, other people.
For anyone that cares, I did got something from England, a certificate in the FCE exam, a got the degree A which I'm quite proud of. Cause I didn't make that much of an effort for that test but then the test was rank 3 in all the exam that you could take which makes it not that really of a high-level exam. Let's see if it will come in handy one day. =P
Now I'm feeling like my head is gonna explode, it has been going on since I took the first pill of my new medicine i got. It's painkillers for my "caudal vertebra" (google it if you don't know what it means) cause I got an injury for 2 months ago after a night of sledge race down a small slope.
I think that I'm gonna start working now =P Let's see if I will blog tomorrow.
Bye bye