Hello again...
Owell, I'm sitting here at work now and "working". There aren't so many people calling now because it's a red day which means people are free from work, except me.:P
The reason why I'm writing in English is so that my dear friend(s) in England can see what's happening in my life, or maybe not happening cause it has been quite quiet for a while now. There are some party here and there and you come across some new faces which is good. Otherwise, this town is more or less still asleep. But I shouldn't complain so much cause i chose to be back in this town from a 3-month visit in England. About England, there are times that make my thoughts wonderer back to those days. The days where you live in a hole completely different culture and you come across people from different part of the world. It's strange how connected everybody seem to be to each other. Imagine yourself, a 19 years-old person moving to study in another country knowing nobody and doesn't have so much knowledge of the country except the fact that they have a great national football team but hasn't proved themselve for a long time now, anyway there are things that are frighting in the world we human being are living in. The are wars, poverty and boogeyman everywhere but it doesn't seem like nobody cares. I wish that i was one of those people who did care about other humans around the world and did something to make a difference, maybe saving the world by being more kind to the enviroment. But I'm not one of those person nor are you (who is reading this) i guess? Back to the root about England. With just one word to describe it - unpredictable...As you think that people or things will go in one direction it suddenly takes a turn and then the world seems upside down. I'm not talking about one specific thing cause there where so many of those. One of the coolest/weirdest experince in my life was the night in Portsmouth where me and two friends pull out a dine&dash and also got our asses tossed in jail. That was really weird waking up with a hang-over in a prison cell without know whatsover what the fuck happened. But it turn out to be a fun experince even though I wouldn't wanna be in that situation ever again.
What else I experienced in England was the feeling of loosing people. I knew at the start that i was just gonna stick around for 7 month, but i never thought about meeting people where this closeness of friendship can suddenly be lost. During the Christmas holiday many people left England to go home to their family and never come back. To have this intense period where you are stuck with 19 people seems like it could be some sort of Big brother. But luckily we had some other options. Enough said about England.-
What have i learned about life? Hmm, so far, I've learn that what you make is what you get. Nothing comes easy in life and to have a path a stick by it is probably one of the most difficult things in life. There are shortcuts everywhere and leapholes but getting to your goal or dream is hard.
I'm dreaming of becoming some sort of a film director or editor and I'm going to work hard to get there. But I'm not ready to do that yet. There are things to do in the world before getting on that path for your dreams. For me, there are two things to go, firstly, the family trip to Vietnam this summer which I'm really looking forward to and secondly me and my two friends backpacking trip in Asia in the beginning of next year. We are looking for 3 months of backpacking, seeing a world that are so far from the world we live in Sweden. I think that that trip will be one of my most rememberble things that i will do in my life. I've done about 4 roadtrips in Sweden and the feeling when you are on the roads with friends is an indescribable feeling. But if i will put it all in one word it would be - freedom...
Walking down a road in a different town not knowing what's gonna happen or what's happening back home is the best feeling. The are no worries and bonderies where the road will take us, we live for 6-7 days together, sticking by each other and are just enjoying the best of our youth. Nobody wants to grow old and looking back through their lives have all this regrets that thay wish they had done differently. Of course a have a lot of regrets even though I'm just becoming 20 this year (and I'm surely you also have a lot of regrets whoever you may be), but all I can do now is looking forward to great things (hopefully) that will happen to me.
As I was saying, i'm at work right now so there aren't so much to do so that's why todays blogging is extra long. But i feel that I owe it to my blog to write this long cause the last blogpost was in november, which seems now like a lifetime away.
Other topic that goes in my mind are the way everything will be in these two years that will come. There are going to be a lot of movements going around. People starting their University studies, others have job in different places. I wonderer if it ever gonna be like it just to be? Friends gathering around for the weekend just to hang out. I'm sure that everyone will meet new friends and have their own life. But where does life starts, where will you meet your truly friends? These friends that you will spend the most of your time together? Well, in my opinion (wow, sounded a little bit to formal there:P) I have to say that it happens when you take these first step out from the hall, scream "God damn we are good, cause we have graduated", it's high school gradution of course. That's when it's all about youself afterwards and who you will meet. There are no obligation anymore, no one to blame or saying this is shit, cause now you have to deal with your own shit and to tell the truth - it is like a shit. The hardest part is not knowing what to do tomorrow or at the weekend. The hardest part is where will you be in the next year, who will you be with? There are no one to lean your back on anymore, not daddy, mommy nor any big brother/sister. It's scary but it's also so god damn cool. The entire world is out there, have a plan and don't hesitate but be realistic.
It feels like I have A LOT of experince, like I'm this 70-years-old person that gives advice to the youth - but I'm not. I'm just typing whatever goes in my mind, my own thoughts, my own opinions. I can't say wether this will have an effect on you or not - cause I don't really give a rat ass. =P
I'm not searching for inspire people cause everyone does whatever they want with their life, cause isn't that the beauty with the human being, not seeing every movie with the same story, having every band playing the same genre, but knowing that there are other genres, other movies, other people.
For anyone that cares, I did got something from England, a certificate in the FCE exam, a got the degree A which I'm quite proud of. Cause I didn't make that much of an effort for that test but then the test was rank 3 in all the exam that you could take which makes it not that really of a high-level exam. Let's see if it will come in handy one day. =P
Now I'm feeling like my head is gonna explode, it has been going on since I took the first pill of my new medicine i got. It's painkillers for my "caudal vertebra" (google it if you don't know what it means) cause I got an injury for 2 months ago after a night of sledge race down a small slope.
I think that I'm gonna start working now =P Let's see if I will blog tomorrow.
Bye bye
The reason why I'm writing in English is so that my dear friend(s) in England can see what's happening in my life, or maybe not happening cause it has been quite quiet for a while now. There are some party here and there and you come across some new faces which is good. Otherwise, this town is more or less still asleep. But I shouldn't complain so much cause i chose to be back in this town from a 3-month visit in England. About England, there are times that make my thoughts wonderer back to those days. The days where you live in a hole completely different culture and you come across people from different part of the world. It's strange how connected everybody seem to be to each other. Imagine yourself, a 19 years-old person moving to study in another country knowing nobody and doesn't have so much knowledge of the country except the fact that they have a great national football team but hasn't proved themselve for a long time now, anyway there are things that are frighting in the world we human being are living in. The are wars, poverty and boogeyman everywhere but it doesn't seem like nobody cares. I wish that i was one of those people who did care about other humans around the world and did something to make a difference, maybe saving the world by being more kind to the enviroment. But I'm not one of those person nor are you (who is reading this) i guess? Back to the root about England. With just one word to describe it - unpredictable...As you think that people or things will go in one direction it suddenly takes a turn and then the world seems upside down. I'm not talking about one specific thing cause there where so many of those. One of the coolest/weirdest experince in my life was the night in Portsmouth where me and two friends pull out a dine&dash and also got our asses tossed in jail. That was really weird waking up with a hang-over in a prison cell without know whatsover what the fuck happened. But it turn out to be a fun experince even though I wouldn't wanna be in that situation ever again.
What else I experienced in England was the feeling of loosing people. I knew at the start that i was just gonna stick around for 7 month, but i never thought about meeting people where this closeness of friendship can suddenly be lost. During the Christmas holiday many people left England to go home to their family and never come back. To have this intense period where you are stuck with 19 people seems like it could be some sort of Big brother. But luckily we had some other options. Enough said about England.-
What have i learned about life? Hmm, so far, I've learn that what you make is what you get. Nothing comes easy in life and to have a path a stick by it is probably one of the most difficult things in life. There are shortcuts everywhere and leapholes but getting to your goal or dream is hard.
I'm dreaming of becoming some sort of a film director or editor and I'm going to work hard to get there. But I'm not ready to do that yet. There are things to do in the world before getting on that path for your dreams. For me, there are two things to go, firstly, the family trip to Vietnam this summer which I'm really looking forward to and secondly me and my two friends backpacking trip in Asia in the beginning of next year. We are looking for 3 months of backpacking, seeing a world that are so far from the world we live in Sweden. I think that that trip will be one of my most rememberble things that i will do in my life. I've done about 4 roadtrips in Sweden and the feeling when you are on the roads with friends is an indescribable feeling. But if i will put it all in one word it would be - freedom...
Walking down a road in a different town not knowing what's gonna happen or what's happening back home is the best feeling. The are no worries and bonderies where the road will take us, we live for 6-7 days together, sticking by each other and are just enjoying the best of our youth. Nobody wants to grow old and looking back through their lives have all this regrets that thay wish they had done differently. Of course a have a lot of regrets even though I'm just becoming 20 this year (and I'm surely you also have a lot of regrets whoever you may be), but all I can do now is looking forward to great things (hopefully) that will happen to me.
As I was saying, i'm at work right now so there aren't so much to do so that's why todays blogging is extra long. But i feel that I owe it to my blog to write this long cause the last blogpost was in november, which seems now like a lifetime away.
Other topic that goes in my mind are the way everything will be in these two years that will come. There are going to be a lot of movements going around. People starting their University studies, others have job in different places. I wonderer if it ever gonna be like it just to be? Friends gathering around for the weekend just to hang out. I'm sure that everyone will meet new friends and have their own life. But where does life starts, where will you meet your truly friends? These friends that you will spend the most of your time together? Well, in my opinion (wow, sounded a little bit to formal there:P) I have to say that it happens when you take these first step out from the hall, scream "God damn we are good, cause we have graduated", it's high school gradution of course. That's when it's all about youself afterwards and who you will meet. There are no obligation anymore, no one to blame or saying this is shit, cause now you have to deal with your own shit and to tell the truth - it is like a shit. The hardest part is not knowing what to do tomorrow or at the weekend. The hardest part is where will you be in the next year, who will you be with? There are no one to lean your back on anymore, not daddy, mommy nor any big brother/sister. It's scary but it's also so god damn cool. The entire world is out there, have a plan and don't hesitate but be realistic.
It feels like I have A LOT of experince, like I'm this 70-years-old person that gives advice to the youth - but I'm not. I'm just typing whatever goes in my mind, my own thoughts, my own opinions. I can't say wether this will have an effect on you or not - cause I don't really give a rat ass. =P
I'm not searching for inspire people cause everyone does whatever they want with their life, cause isn't that the beauty with the human being, not seeing every movie with the same story, having every band playing the same genre, but knowing that there are other genres, other movies, other people.
For anyone that cares, I did got something from England, a certificate in the FCE exam, a got the degree A which I'm quite proud of. Cause I didn't make that much of an effort for that test but then the test was rank 3 in all the exam that you could take which makes it not that really of a high-level exam. Let's see if it will come in handy one day. =P
Now I'm feeling like my head is gonna explode, it has been going on since I took the first pill of my new medicine i got. It's painkillers for my "caudal vertebra" (google it if you don't know what it means) cause I got an injury for 2 months ago after a night of sledge race down a small slope.
I think that I'm gonna start working now =P Let's see if I will blog tomorrow.
Bye bye
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